GOOD NIGHT..........

Cyprian Ekwenski....May you rest in peace..the joy you brought me....a young book junkie....I will always remember...Jaguar Nana and Jaguar Nana's daughter..books that I read when I was a child.... I remember begging my mother for money to buy Jaguar Nana's daughter, and again saving to buy another one..when the first one got lost.....

God bless you and I thank God for your life and your gift of writing... thank you for sharing that gift with the world

Adieu......You will always be remembered

TODAY,FRIENDSHIP

I can cross the ocean for a friend...I can do almost anything for a friend......but what gets to me is when you try so hard for a friendship and the other party is like blah.....
I don't expect much from people...so if you can devalue the little I expect.....then there is no point.

Today i am reviewing friendships- i refuse to be one of those people that always complain about their friends....

Usually I do things not expecting anything in return....but from today...i will look at it from the perspective of 'will the other person do it for me'.....

Today....I give up on friendships........I have hung my boots......I accept defeat....today I know longer value people for the extra mile.......it was probably convenient for them.....

Today..I am tired of being used and abused(in a manner of speaking)..........

Today...I let them go,friendships that are like relationships(difficult relationships)....a wise woman once said - take time to heal from the lies people have told u....and the lies you have told people.....today i do so......

So today I have no expectations...so I wipe the slate clean .......I have paid every friend back for everything they have ever done for me..........

I face the world alone...forging ahead.....praying for grace and strength......believing that one day...being me will be good enough for me

Today....I give up......I look to myself.... hard as it may be...

Today...I believe my mother(mothers are usually right)most friendships are usually over-rated.....

So my friends...ode to you....farewell.....maybe one day and maybe not........

THANKING GOD

this is just a post to thank God for being God...for his presence..his provision, his forgiveness,his mercy and above all his love...
His grace is sufficient for me.........
Baba God..I thank you, if I had mouths all over my body..I will use them to thank you.......

REGRETTING REGRETS

hey...some times I wonder why people hate getting older...cos I think older is better...life might not be a bed of roses but u can have most things on your terms...I dont send again...i do wat I want when I want...i know what is important to me and mine..
I love myself irrespective of the numbers of nigga(forgive me) that have have tried to pull me down,friends that have betrayed me,pple that have felt betrayed,pple that I have loved,who loved and love me,...and all this has made me a better person...do I have regrets tons..but u cant live your life on regrets cos u will only end up regretting regret.

I think everyone should be happy getting old..celebrate it.....that truth is I look back at my being 20..i think i dont want to be 20 again...do I want to be 28 again most def........

A WEEKEND TO REMEMBER???...maybe not

Out of my town ..this weekend..my friend has decided that my single status is something that she has to help me with. anyways so met the young man..do i like him....seems aight....nice smile.....wat is it with 'h' factor???I am plagued..even MM had it so......anyways he not to my spec....but i can adjust...hmmm...talk about settling for less....hmmmmmmm

so that was the highlight of my weekend ...what else....was a nanny,hairdresser,chef,love -interest.............

I am so tired of it all.....cant wait for it to all come together.....
gotta run...another time ,another day

TODAY WAS NOT A GOOD DAY

today was.........................
were do i start from..the late payment chaarges...the fact that the money goes faster than it comes or the pple that promise me money but dont deliver or the pple that are oweing me but do not pay.
this country is harddd..and u are strictly on your own...I dont understand how people can stay here on menial jobs. Seriously considered going back home today..were I dont pay for accomodation,food..and the like...seriously taught abt calling him to ask for a raise maybe I still would.
like that was not bad enuff..lost an earring to a set I really love...arghhh......
day was not a good day but we thank God .....

Today was a good day.......

Today was a good day........today I felt good..that I have collected more payments than shazia that made me feel good.God knows I need a break.....
Where do i start from...I am at a point in my life where everything is at a stand still but I know that God is in control and I remember the promises of God.
But this belief in God...some times I tell me self that God should not answer my prayers cos of what I have done and how I have failed in my walk with Christ but I know it is the lie of the devil and that Jesus Christ died for sinners and God loves me in spite of my sins.That is why I still keep on believing and trusting.
last week someone asked me if I was a born-christian and i said yes......and he asked if God comes today will I go to heaven..and I knew in my heart No...so I spoke the truth and it was no.....

I miss him so much and wish I could go back..but I see it as God's hand cause if he didn't leave me I wouldn't have left him and I really don't need to be 40 and still be with him.....so peeps be careful of what u wish for cause it might just come true.
some days i feel like calling him.....but i know if is also the lie of the devil...i am better than that.

hey